Have been wondering this–about mindfulness– wondering if I really know what it is. I thought I did until I reflected back upon yesterday. And I will bring this full circle but first–
Yesterday I was very busy. In the morning I set up the backdrop for a photo shoot. Involved wrangling two large stands against a brick wall and hanging a black background cloth. At 10 a friend came over–modeled scarves to be added to the website. One hour to visit & one hour to shoot. Quick lunch.
Then checking shipping options on website–could I find an app to calculate shipping based on zip code instead of just listing a flat rate? Found nothing. Worked on trying to download pics from ipad to pc. PC not recognizing Ipad. Called Apple–on hold 28 minutes–finally spoke to a person who asked for my contact number because we had a poor connection–he said. Muttered a few choice words when he didn’t call back then returned to laptop. Pics were there. (I’ll never figure this out.) But the color from this morning’s shoot was totally different from the color of the previous afternoon–so a morning-light scarf looked nothing like the afternoon-light scarf. Marveled over this a while. The color of light.
And in the afternoon light I reshot some scarves. A neighbor dropped in for a few minutes–dropped off potatoes. Back to capturing images.
Then back to the “lab” as my sister calls it–she says other things, too, and hints that perhaps I’m a mad scientist–or a brewer of wild concoctions–of the witchy variety. Rinsed and fixed four eco printed scarves from the previous day.
Caught up in the depth of the color and images–leaves floating on water–a pond–blue water–a magical place. Then lots of this and that before retiring for the night.
Now back to mindfulness. I felt very present during the day–totally immersed in what I was doing–focused. Intentional. But I’ve always thought that mindfulness meant being aware that I’m practicing being mindful–like creating a space from where I observe self going through the day’s gymnastics. And no, I wasn’t paying attention to how I was maneuvering the flow of the day–but present to the what that I was doing. In retrospect I was just right there. Absorbed in each activity. So I guess the question becomes–is being present the same thing as being mindful?
I’m wondering simply from a place of curiosity–nonjudgmental–just wondering.
(A sidebar: Just now I typed the word “in”–except my hand had moved to the right by one key. One over from what I was taught is the “home” position. Try it. )