(I was just introduced to a new-to-me free photo editor: pixlr.com. It does some fun things that Picasa doesn’t do.)
It just happened like that. I woke up. Body felt flogged. Eyes REALLY puffy. But inside I felt light. Happier. And the reason I’m saying this is because it’s taken me a really long time to get it–the ability to transcend the physical/emotional condition. To be just fine regardless. And when I noticed how good I felt in spirit as opposed to the way I felt in flesh–well, it was wonderful. OK. I’m going to take this one step further.
The thing about pain. Physical pain. Psychic pain. Emotional pain. And the thing about transitioning over. I think about that sometimes. Have wondered–“what if I’m in so much pain that it gets in the way of transitioning with light and consciousness?” It’s important to me — the quality of consciousness at the time of death. It’s huge. And so sometimes I find myself considering it. Especially whenever I’ve been in a lot of discomfort. Then the thought has arisen. What if I’m feeling like this? How will I transition joyfully?
And so now I know. This morning there was a very real separation between state of body and state of being. I see how it can happen. The acknowledgement of one while dwelling in the other.
Cleaning up, tidying up, early morning. Knowing already what cloth would honor Dolphin. It will be this one:
I’m not certain about anything yet except the base. The stick/shell object–one of a bunch I put together around Christmas. They’re still here. Just waiting.
Hanging out on the window sill with a ton of other “important” artifacts all so intertwined that when one falls, everything goes down.
And so, I don’t know yet where the cloth is going, but like the Starfish, there will be a promise stitched into the cloth. A promise. An honoring.
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Hello Patricia!
Once again I find myself relating, agreeing with your words and feelings. The pain thing (chronic back) …it’s so hard to move beyond it. And yet, I too believe it’s important to stay focused on joy and gratitude. One of the many reasons I love to stitch and create. You have inspired me to blog, and by doing so I seem to be finding myself, my soul, once again, so I must send you my thanks. I truly appreciate your taking the time to share!
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hi Patricia! just checked out your blog and have to tell you, the deer/moose hat is hilarious. sending it on to my daughter who is a knitter. so glad you’re here–and thanks for sharing your blog. looking forward to reading more.
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i love everything you say here.
recently, i’d gotten the book Preparing to Die by Andrew Holecek
Practical Advice and Spiritual Wisdom from the Tibetan Buddhist Tradition
got it because in this moment, knowing that it might be me, with Alz B in the moment of
her leaving. She is non theist. but it’s good to be grounded well on my end. i will
be there with her last inhale.
and then, i will be there with Mine.
so, yes. i love your presence here with it all. and the death of the Dolphins…PRACTICE.
you can’t change it. but you can FEEL it.
this cloth already is FULL.
so deeply tender.
LOVE….
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thank you Grace. thank you thank you. i wanted to hear your thoughts.
needed to hear you thoughts really. because they affirm things for me. and that is so important. you are a touchstone and i am very, very grateful for that, my friend.
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