So I’ve started a new blog site and a voice in my head is saying “whoop-dee-doo, and so?” Well, so nothing except this: I notice I’m AFRAID of seeming trite and I’m also noticing how vulnerable I feel. What’s that all about? I’d venture it’s about this process of putting it out there–THEN paying attention to what is arising. In this case, the arising of these uncomfortable feelings is helping me see where on the flypaper I’m stuck. Helping me step back from my SELF, view the big picture and then ask myself, “REALLY–you’re worried about stuff like THAT?” I think this is called gaining perspective. It’s also helping me sort the wheat from the chaff in terms of hearing my authentic voice. The only one I wish to speak with but the one that sometimes hesitates. Authenticity, yes.
And that brings me to something else. Today I was pulling out work from last year, looking for something for a gift. I liked some of what I saw.
Protection
It’s very different from what I’m doing now–THEN I was just doing. Without thought. Just doing what came to me. Now I’m wondering if I’m doing some other THING. This cloth piece is goopy in a sense. Some of the fabric was painted and the paint had glitter in it. The CROW in me is in all ways attracted to the bright and shiny. I don’t really know if it’s horrible, funky or just nondescript. But I can still feel the realness of the place where it came from. So I’m thinking about authenticity and perspective.
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You know, I think you are too hard on yourself. I find this to be a beautiful and original piece. My only suggestion would be to reduce the black frame because it’s very stark and creates a sort of hole. You could possibly add other fabrics on top of the black to soften it. A lot to play with!
best, nadia
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hey! that is an excellent suggestion to mute down the black hole–and a very good observation as well. being gentler to self –well all i can say is i’m aware of it and seeing this tendency to be too too. thanks so much.
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my crow eyes love shiny beady things too, love the shimmering water world you have created Nadia’s thoughts are very good about embellishing the dark edge I would add lots of protective talisman beads, shells, sticks & stones to create the sense of edge between the two worlds.
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loving these suggestions–creating a shoreline
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are we not always simply just doing? is that not at the core of being? of presence? besides, this thing or that thing…no matter. what is there is the emanation of your creativity and it is beautiful!
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yes, doing. and intention. and i suppose, motivation. some times i just have to question it all –calibrate my compass — to be sure i’m staying on path and not taking some easy detour.
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What’s wrong with a detour? You see new things with eyes not complacent or on auto-pilot. Is there a path you Have To stay on? Just throwing this out there!
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i hope you have decided that you love these turtles. they ARE wonderful. and to
just fall back into all this questioning and all the while, keep making. to me, that’s all
there is to do.
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some times i sound like i don’t like my work–remember OWEM–well that piece i really didn’t like and still don’t–but everything else, i’m fine with. in fact i like these turtles of Protection so much that i’m gifting them to my son for his birthday on the 25th. (hope he’s not reading this.) so yes, i’m loving the turtles. and i’m loving your guiding thoughts and support through this process. and yes, questioning and doing –together. it can be done!
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